How I live.

Honestly I live both a biblical and worldly life. I am a struggling christian, I will  be honest about that. I grew up in a christian home so I know whats wrong and right but there is the rebel in me that just wants to...well rebel. I have had my moments where I was not walking with god I was just going with the flow of the world. But I didn't like how I felt or how my life was going. I realized life was awful with out God, so at this moment I am not worldly but I'm not a perfect christian either (really though, who is?). Right now I am in between, I am redeveloping my relationship with God and realizing how sad it is to be with out God. I gave my heart to God but as I think about it I slowly started slipping away and Gods comfort and embrace also slipped away. But realizing my relationship with God was not what I wanted it to be I got back on track and let me tell you...life is great. I still have my ups and downs but God is always there to pick me up, dust me off and send me on the path he has for me.